Maybe even an apology for weaponizing the word dead.
Then Jessica set her glass down very carefully and looked at me with that practiced, gentle expression.
“So,” she said, “my business coach and I have been working on my launch plan, and I could really use your expertise.”
“What kind of expertise?” I asked, though I already knew.
“Well, she says that to really do it right, I need about fifteen thousand for the first six months. Website development, branding, marketing, renting spaces for workshops, a scouting trip to California to design my own retreat. Mom and Dad have already given me five, and they’re covering my rent.
I’m still about ten thousand short.”
My fork froze halfway to my mouth.
Jessica rushed on. “I’m not asking you for ten,” she said quickly. “But I thought maybe you could invest three thousand?
Or three thousand six hundred?”
The number landed like a bad joke.
Mom dabbed at an invisible crumb on the tablecloth. Dad stared at his plate. The silence said they’d known she was going to ask.
“Amanda, honey,” Mom began.
“We just thought maybe this could be a way for you girls to reconnect. A partnership.”
“A partnership where I provide the capital and Jessica provides… what, exactly?” I asked. “Vision boards?”
“That’s not fair,” Jessica protested, tears already shimmering.
“You don’t believe in me.”
“I believe you’re capable of a lot,” I said. “I also believe a track record matters. In the last five years, how many career paths have you chased that Mom and Dad funded?
PR, yoga, food blogging, event planning. Now wellness coaching. How much money has gone into those starts and stops?
What’s the return?”
“We support both our daughters,” Dad said sharply.
“You support Jessica financially and emotionally,” I said. “You support me by expecting me never to need anything.”
“That’s not true,” Mom snapped. “You’ve always been so self‑sufficient.
You never wanted help.”
“I wanted help,” I said, my voice low. “I just learned very early that it wasn’t available to me in the same way. So I stopped asking.”
“If this is about the retreat—” Jessica started.
“It’s not just about the retreat,” I cut in.
“It’s about you telling me I was dead to you because I wouldn’t hand over three thousand six hundred dollars. It’s about inviting me back into this house, not to apologize or talk about what happened, but to set up another ask.”
Mom’s face hardened. “How dare you imply we invited you here for money.”
“Did anyone bring up that ultimatum?” I asked.
“Has anyone said, ‘Hey, maybe telling our daughter she was dead to us over a check was extreme’? Or did we all agree to pretend it never happened as long as I went back to my assigned role?”
They didn’t answer.
I set my fork down. “I’m not giving you money, Jess.
Not three thousand. Not thirty. Not three.
If this business is your calling, you’ll build it yourself. You’ll hustle. You’ll take on jobs you don’t love to keep the lights on while you grow it.
You will not use me as your venture capitalist.”
“You’ve changed,” Dad said, shaking his head like he didn’t recognize me.
“No,” I said. “I’ve stopped apologizing for not setting myself on fire to keep everyone else warm.”
“If you walk out that door,” Mom began.
“I know,” I said. “You won’t invite me back.”
The funny thing was, the words didn’t gut me this time.
They felt like a line being drawn in wet concrete.
“I’m choosing my mental health and my financial stability over an unhealthy family dynamic,” I said, standing.
“That’s not betrayal. That’s survival.”
I thanked Mom for dinner out of sheer muscle memory, grabbed my coat, and walked out.
No one followed me.
In the car, the guilt that had always followed my defiance like a shadow… wasn’t there.
In its place was a quiet, steady sense of rightness, like the feeling I got when a spreadsheet finally balanced.
Six months later, I stood in the middle of my living room in Milfield and spun slowly in a circle.
The floors beneath my bare feet were the same boards that had been there when I bought the house, but now they gleamed honey‑gold instead of warping and splintering. The walls, once stained and cracked, were smooth and painted a soft cream that made the six hundred square feet feel less like a shoebox and more like a cottage.
New windows caught the late‑afternoon light, their black trim clean against the freshly painted exterior.
The wood stove in the corner sat on a tiled hearth I’d laid myself in a weekend of cursing and YouTube tutorials.
The kitchen, visible through the widened archway, held white shaker cabinets and butcher‑block counters I’d sealed three times. The farmhouse sink under the window looked out over raised garden beds where tomatoes and peppers tangled together. The bathroom, once a horror movie, now had a claw‑foot tub I’d found at a salvage yard and refinished in the yard, neighbors stopping by to offer tips and gossip.
My bedroom was barely big enough for a queen bed and a narrow dresser, but the morning light poured in just right, and there was a tiny window nook where I’d shoved a chair and a lamp, my own little reading corner.
Outside, the porch wrapped around two sides of the house now, with room for a swing and a small table.
The overgrown yard had given way to a mowed lawn, flower beds, and three young apple trees staking their claim near the property line.
All in, I’d spent just under eighteen thousand dollars on the place. More than my original sixteen‑thousand estimate, because of course it was. But for twenty‑one thousand six hundred dollars—counting the purchase price—I had what most people in Chicago would bleed for:
A home with no mortgage.
Thomas wound around my ankles, purring like a tiny engine.
“We did it,” I told him, scooping him up.
“Not bad for a trash house, huh?”
The doorbell rang. I still wasn’t used to having one. I opened the door to Rachel and David, their arms full of grocery bags and a plant.
“Housewarming fairy has arrived,” Rachel sang, pushing past me into the living room.
She stopped dead and spun the same slow circle I had.
“Amanda,” she breathed. “This is insane. In the best way.
This looks like something off a renovation show.”
David whistled low. “I thought you were exaggerating on FaceTime. You undersold it.”
As the afternoon went on, more people arrived.
Frank and his wife, Eleanor, carrying a homemade quilt. Miguel and his sister with a tray of tamales. Diane with a toolbox wrapped in a bow.
A couple of other neighbors with casseroles and a six‑pack from the gas station.
My six hundred square feet filled up with voices and laughter and the kind of easy affection I’d once thought only existed in TV families.
Around the bonfire I’d built in the backyard, under a sky so full of stars it made my chest ache, Frank raised a Solo cup.
“To Amanda,” he said. “Who saw a falling‑down house and decided it was worth saving. And who reminded the rest of us that some things—and some people—are more valuable than they look at first glance.”
“To new beginnings,” Diane added, clinking her cup against mine.
“Milfield’s lucky to have you.”
My eyes stung, but the tears didn’t feel like the ones I’d cried in my car that first night. These felt like something loosening.
This, I realized, was what family could be.
People who showed up not with invoices or ultimatums, but with quilts and casseroles and time.
Later, after everyone drifted home and the embers of the fire glowed low, I sat on the porch swing with Thomas in my lap and my phone in my hand.
A notification banner sat at the top of the screen.
Jessica Wilson: 8:43 p.m.
I hesitated, then opened it.
Saw your house pics on Instagram. It looks really nice.
Hope you’re doing well.
I read it twice, waiting for the follow‑up ask that never came.
Thank you, I typed back. I am. Hope you’re okay.
The typing dots appeared, disappeared, then reappeared.
Business is slow, she wrote.
Moved back in with Mom and Dad for now. Things are… tense.
I pictured their kitchen without me in it, the dynamic I’d always absorbed now bouncing between the three of them. Jessica, still trying to be the sun.
My parents, still orbiting and burning.
I’m sorry, I replied, and meant it.
More dots.
I’ve been thinking about what you said. About building something myself. Do you think we could talk sometime?
Not about money. Just… talk.
I sat with that for a long moment.
You don’t owe them this, the old, wary part of me whispered.
You owe yourself clarity, the newer part countered. And boundaries.
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