When my ex-husband demanded full custody, I feared his money and staged “perfect dad” image would sway our children and the judge’s decision. But when our daughter revealed what she’d overheard him planning for her and her little brother, the courtroom went silent.
I’m 35, and I just went through the most gut-wrenching custody hearing of my life. Two years ago, I discovered my husband Daniel’s affair.
It was the classic story of spending way too many late nights at “work,” and me finding lipstick stains on his shirt that he swore were ketchup.
I was in denial at first, especially because divorcing him meant giving up financial stability and starting from nothing.
But after months of this, I finally got the courage to leave with my kids, Emily, eight, and Jack, who was just five years old at the time.
Starting over in a way smaller apartment felt like drowning. No one prepares you to be a single, working mother.
I had to begin my mornings at dawn to prepare lunches, get the kids ready for school, and get myself dressed for work.
I navigated serious morning traffic to drop them off and went to my office. I was running out the door at 5 p.m. on the dot to pick them up from their after-school activities.
My evenings consisted of homework and getting them to bed.
Meanwhile, my weekends and every other free day were filled with either a dentist visit, an overwhelming project, or even PTA meetings.
This was all on my dime, by the way, because we never discussed alimony or child support.
Daniel wasn’t completely absent during this time. We had shared custody. But he was only the “fun dad.”
He would sweep in maybe one weekend a month with tickets to Disneyland, buy them whatever they wanted, and brag about being the “#BestDadEver” on Instagram.
By Sunday, Emily and Jack would be tired, cranky, and very reluctant to finish the homework they left behind on Friday.
Daniel would disappear for weeks until his next big outing with them. He didn’t care about their grades, health, or anything else that truly mattered. And he never offered to help with expenses.
I told myself he was paying for gifts and trips. So that was enough for our new normal.
And yet, a couple of months ago, he filed for full custody. The official papers arrived early one morning, and the claims in them boiled my blood.
Daniel’s lawyers were trying to paint me as “unstable,” “too emotional,” and “unable to provide the lifestyle the children deserved.”
He took pictures of my new apartment with all the thrifted furniture. He also took photos of me on Friday nights when I was a total mess, trying to get the kids ready for a weekend with their dad.
I had no idea. But he had, and those photos were attached as evidence in the filing. A judge might not see between the lines, but I did.
What Daniel really meant here was: I couldn’t buy their love with gadgets and cash the way he does.
The weeks leading up to our court date were a nightmare. Daniel bought Emily, who was just ten, the newest iPhone, complete with every accessory imaginable.
Jack, now seven years old, got the new PS5 with all kinds of games.
“I love you kids so much,” he would say right after dropping off their presents, leaving me to figure out how to install the game console and set up my daughter’s new phone.
The weekend trips got more frequent and fancier each time. Sometimes, Daniel would even rent a limo to drive them wherever.
They had dinner at expensive restaurants, and the kids never heard the word no from him.
Of course, they were excited. Who wouldn’t be?
And the pièce de résistance came the night before our court date. It was a Golden Retriever puppy that came with a big red bow around its neck.
I loved dogs, but it was another responsibility he was dumping on me.
“This is just the beginning of what you’ll get if you choose me,” he whispered to Emily and Jack when he thought I couldn’t hear, before walking out.
Honestly, I didn’t care about the presents or the extra responsibility. I always wanted my kids to grow up with a dog and everything else they wanted.
But by then, I was truly scared. My lawyer, Andrea, said there was a chance he could win because of his money and how generous he had been to them since the separation
Plus, the judge would hear the kids out. I had explained that to them, and despite all I wanted to say, I never once tried to influence their choice. I was better than that.
So, the morning of our hearing, we arrived bright and early for our appointment. The kids looked perfectly put together, and I did my best with my appearance.
Andrea smiled encouragingly, but I knew she was worried.
Daniel strolled in minutes later, wearing an expensive tailored suit, followed by a set of attorneys that looked right out of a TV show.
“No matter what happens today, don’t take it personally, Sarah,” he said as we waited outside the courtroom. “You just can’t keep up with me, and the kids know it.”
Once we were called inside, the process began. His team pulled out photo after photo of the kids’ time with their dad.
Emily and Jack were always smiling brightly with their new things while going to exciting locations.
The judge, a stern-looking man in his 60s, nodded at a few of the pictures, and my hopes dwindled further.
“See, Your Honor?” One of Daniel’s lawyers said smoothly. “Look how happy they are. My client can provide opportunities and experiences that simply aren’t available in their… ugh… current situation.”
Despite their strong case, my lawyer stood and presented our side and everything I’d done over the past two years to provide for my children despite being alone and having to go back to work.
Although I didn’t want to hash out the past, I let Andrea talk about his cheating, his irresponsibility, his lack of child support, and more.
“The fact is this, Your Honor,” she said, wrapping up our case. “Children need more than money and trips and gifts to thrive. They need all the hard stuff that might not be flashy or even nice sometimes. They need the tough parent. Emily and Jack need their mother.”
As Andrea saw back down beside me, I saw Daniel still smirking. He knew he had this in the bag.
The judge then said, “I would like to hear from the kids now.”
I looked at Emily and smiled encouragingly. “No matter what you say or who you want to stay with,” I whispered, “I will always be there. I love you both.”
My brave girl smiled as she stood before the judge. “Take your time, young lady,” he said gently. “Speak only what you feel is true.”
“Your Honor,” she began. “You have to know the truth about our dad.”
I frowned, and there were some murmurs from Daniel’s attorneys.
But Emily continued without noticing. “Dad told his girlfriend he doesn’t even want us. I heard him on the phone. He just needs us, so Grandma will give him her mansion and millions. And then he’s sending us to boarding school so he doesn’t have to deal with us.”
The courtroom went dead silent.
“He promised me a car when I turn 16 if I said I wanted to live with him,” my daughter kept going. “He said we could have anything we wanted if we were good today. He even gave us a puppy yesterday as proof of that.”
Jack decided to stand up just then and joined his sister. “He also said we wouldn’t have to see our ‘boring’ Mom anymore if we picked him,” he said, using air quotes. “That she wouldn’t bother us with her rules anymore.”
